i never want to feel the need to do that again... i dont want to turn to starting again... i dont want to hide my pain and i dont want to be sad... i really dont lik how shitty i get when i feel the need to do it i hate how i cant controll it i hate how it doesnt ever really go away .. i just cant deal as well as i used to promblems are starting to arise again .....

remember this might not make sense to u its okay because its none of ur business anyway